Just after writing “Im ready”, i feel like all the emotions increase, like i was just absorbed by all thoses emotions, feeling, like you feel that things are moving inside of you, like energy or whatever, but you can feel it.
I wrote i’m ready but i wasn’t at all ! i was like i’m ready but not too much, so please be kind with me.
But i wrote it, the universe hear it. And just a second after i tried to breath slowly, to sleep, but no, no sleep for me.
It was like a tsunami, a storm, a i don’t know what but something you can’t resist like the only thing you have to do is to let go, like resisting or looking for ways to change the situation is just worst.
So i was thinking that i’m going to die, like it wasn’t just emotions, it was sensations, feelings, like ALL YOUR BODY is doing i don’t know what but aarrrgh.
But a little part of me knew, that this is for something really good after, like it’s a kind of rite of passage. Like after this, you are ready.
So now i know how this stuff works, so i was like i feel like i’m dying but still calm, like wtf and ok it’s going to be fine.
I will share with you my little tips/guide that helped me to not panic more when i panic.
So yes, finally, as always i’m alive. The tsunami is going away, the storm too. Now it’s getting calmer.
During all the day i was feeling that something is going to happens, like something is going to change i know ! i don’t know what, but something radical. But i was like ok i want to know, i want to do, but nothing, nothing happens, no clarity, just the feeling that things are moving inside of me.
So now, that everything is going down, no clarity but an idea, creativity. The idea of creating a little guide for when you panic, because i was like ok if i didn’t knew what was going on it will surely be worst than that. Like when you do’nt understand what’s going on you don’t know what to do.
So i write this little guide.
And after i was like ok, it’s time to sleep now no ?
I try to sleep.
i feel like after this tsunami, i feel like as if i’m not scared, afraid of anything, like now i can do whatever i want after living this, everything seems so easy, tiny, like i feel that now i have no fear, or just less.